i want you to know,
with everything i won't let this go,
these words are my heart and soul,
i'll hold on to these,
and won't let it go.
wokays,
i guess i haven't told you about the first day of hari raya ay?
the day before hari raya, (the eve) both my sister and me saw someone. guess who? diddy's ex. atika. again. gosh, it's so coincidental luhs. recognized her boyfiee first before recognising her. rode a taxi home because i was rushing for time. mum expected us to do laundry at parkway parade. luckily the chinese auntie was extremely kind enough to stay a little later than usual, just for us. awww. SWEET! we had fun using the washing machine and dryer. i flooded the washing machine with an excess amount of washing powder which thus created a hell lot of white bubbles. lovely! hahah. :D i did listen to instructions kay (NOT!). haha. :D yeah, bought a basket full or products. there goes my hundred bucks. i'm so gonna earn it back. haha. :D yeah, i did my search for gifts. didn't find anything extrordinary to be purchased for that special someone. haha. bleahs. then headed home to carry out the usual beauty routine (HELL YEAH!). now, here comes the weird part. i laughed in my sleep. wow. i guess i must have dreamt about something nice or funnay. but whatever it was, it was WEIRD. haha, both my mum and my sister thought it was a ghost. so if you have a vivid imagination, you can practically gauge how scaray it was. LOL!
yeah, then on the actual day (HARI RAYA!), i woke up and quickly switched on the telly to catch the takbir. mann, i melted alright. it was so solemn and blissful to the soul. i cried. gosh. i was reminded of my beloved grandmother. i miss her. she was my everything. an angel sent down by him. till she left. you know, the future hari rayas would never be the same without her presence. it just creates a whole new atmosphere, which i dread having. really sad. hmm.
yeah, did receive a hell lot of text wishing me selamat hari raya. same goes to my fster profile. thanks people. talked to my sayang. was extremely delighted to hear that he performed his prayers. i love you my dear! i went purple. my blue was super hideous. haha. :D headed to my grandpa's place first where i had lotsa fun.mingled with little kids and chatted with my aunties and uncles. i was so loving the moment. got a surprising amount of green packets though. nyehehh. yeah the headed to grandpa's sister's house (all so complicated, haha). omg, her place was so crowded mann. they said i looked like norfasarie (WTH!, whoever that is.). hahas, gross. saw a hell lot of weird people whom i didn't recognise. ahaha.
headed home early and that's when i chatted with my dear. sometimes the feeling's too overwhelming. tough to express especially for a person like me. i'd rather keep it locked up and sealed. yeah, enjoyed his hilarious singing. haha, awww. claps! :D cheered me up, totally.
me beloved grandma,
you've been missed.
thought i saw a glimpse of you looking right through me the other day,
but i was dead wrong. she resembled you. similar in every way.
damn.